All proceeds will be matched (up to $500) and donated to ACLU to progress the fight for civil liberties.
Today I’m releasing this short break-up album called “When You’re Gone, You’re Still In My Songs.” For those not in the know, Courtney and I parted ways recently, and between phone calls to my best friends and finding a counselor, this was my attempt to make sense of it all and track something while those feelings were still raw. Just a week after recording it, these songs already feel like a time capsule. I sort of like that they have no perspective, no space yet to look back and figure it all out.
It’s just called Wes Leslie, not “The Bedroom Player” or any of that, because I’m not really a character in these songs, just myself, writing how I feel and not overthinking it. Written during that great storm that just passed, and with a slight cold too.
Tracks 1 and 3 were composed the week of our breakup, track 2 was one I’d written earlier, trying to visualize what would happen if our relationship were to end one day, and track 4 was written when I lived in Spain. I once gave Courtney a CD with something like thirty unreleased Wes Leslie songs I didn’t know what to do with, and that one really resonated and has become a personal favorite of hers. It’s sort of become her song, this bit of myself that nobody else got to know, so it’s included as a sendoff.
As a side note, I’m secretly concerned that our relationship ending will reflect badly on polyamory as a premise and serve to vindicate those who judge open relationships, but the truth is, our communication did grow stronger than ever during that time, and helped us realize what our needs truly are, and how to meet them. It’s made us healthier people in our other relationships, romantic or not, and I’m happy to talk more about those lessons with you sometime.
Until then, you can donate bottles of Chartreuse or Take 5 candy bars in my honor to: 479 14th Street Apt A, SF CA 94103.
The album is set up as a free/pay-what-you-wish download, and all proceeds will be matched by me (up to $500) and go directly to the ACLU.
released January 30, 2017